My Once a-forever update

Soooo....>awkward haven't-talked-to-you-in-forever-type-pause< how's things?

SO here's me. Sitting in my apartment at 4:14am not watching the adult swim re-run thats playing in the background that I already watched earlier today. Instead I'm smoking my last cigarettes that I cant afford but buy anyway and doing anything to avoid my bed. Don't know why I dont want to sleep...considering Im so bloody tired. I partied Thursday, Friday, and Saturday night on cheap and disgusting beer. I miss my wine-drunk that was so much more passionate and less stupid and fuzzy. But wine...real wine...is for them's wit da money.

I'm utterly sick of school (still, surprise surprise) and thinking this will be my last semester for a bit. I don't even know why Im still here. I'm wasting money by doing poorly and not following everything my heart is telling me will make me happy. I still love Anthropology but I dont want to have to do it to make my money. What I want to do is travel...which doesn't require a degree...but does require moola. So I'm thinking I might look into becoming a flight attendant, with cheap traveling, decent money. Some say it might be unambitious but I dont mind waiting on people for a living. I think I prefer my work to be ever-so-slightly unpleasant. Makes free time feel more appreciated. I'm sure when I hit 30 or so I'll decide its time for an actual career and come back to school to finish up. I stopped the BK thang when they wouldn't (after they said they would several times) flex my schedule to weekends only. Not that I'm doing awesomely even working weekends...but I couldn't handle 15 credits and work during all my free time. Im a Tim Hortons coffee-wench again! The co-workers arent as chummy nor fun as those from BK, but its a change of scenery.

I'm also dieting and exercising for like..the first time in years. I dont need to be twiggy skinny or anything, so long as Im comfortable in my own skin. But for the past 4 years I weighed 130 without watching what I ate or excersizing (which I assume meant that was about right where I should be). But recently reaching 140 got me a little if-these-trends-continue nervous. So Im eating fwuits and vegittyballs and nuts and tea and soymilk. ...semi-strictly. I have a free soup and bagel from Timmy's friday saturday and sunday for lunch. And Im doing some exercises during the week.

Hmmm...what else? My older bro got his "branch"....which is Military Intelligence and he was geeked. But for some reason for three years hes going to be some sort of armed sargeant type thing instead and drive a tank. Which is nifty. Annnd..little bro is doing some sort of cop stuff at Scraft. Parents and I are actualyl getting along...mostly because we hardly see eachother anymore. They pay for a lot of stuff becuase they want me to be in school and focus more on school then work. And if they want that it means they pay some rent for me becuase otherwise I'd have to drop out to make me some more dough. It'll actually be nice to see the fam for Thanksgiving, which I havent felt in a good long time.

The rats are doing well. New and improved cage.

As always, when I come back here after not checking it out for so long I read back through the posts and reminisce.

I miss a lot of folks I dont see anymore. So Howdy to those of you on LJ! And an unheard howdy to those of you who aren't. I probably won't call to catch up even though I'd like to. Im just like that for some reason.

This may be the spurt of a few weeks worth of updates..or I might talk with you again in another...oh...year. : ) Forgive me, and best wishes to you all! Have a loving holiday season.


Heres to my last cigarette!